Coldest

"those who act the coldest are sometimes those who are most emotional deep inside, but have suffered so much that they have to act cold to survive"

Officialy missing you

"How can i miss a brat like you?"

The question that never have an answer. Poor me!


Pepatah bilang kalo jodoh gak kemana. Orang yang bener2x buat kita bakal balik lagi setelah dia pergi, bagaimanapun caranya. Tapi hidup bukan kayak cerita-cerita manis di film romantis atau novel-novel roman yg entah bagaimana cara selalu punya ending happily ever after. Ini dunia nyata bro!. Dunia dimana harapan kadang jadi hal yg mengerikan bahkan lebih mengerikan dari kematian. 
Harapan tentang kamu. Harapan tentang kalian. Harapan tentang kembalinya hal-hal yang hilang malah membuat goresan panjang dan dalam di suatu bidang khayal bernama hati.
Ini bukan tentang "how much i care/love you". Ini tentang bagaimana kebisaan yang ada tiba-tiba hilang. Tentang sahabat yang tiba-tiba jadi ... nothing. Tentang harapan akan dream comes true yang gak coming-coming. *sighhhh

where are you?
I dont even know how are you anymore.
i miss you.
i miss the way you talking to me.
i miss the story that you share to me.
i miss the time when we're just sitting and sharing a thing.
i miss my patner in crime.
i miss you.

that's it... just it

Sometimes it's hard to be strong all the time and when you grow tired of it, all you wanna see beside you is someone who will be strong for you, when you cry...

Haters

YOU are the people with full of sh*t!!!

Okeh, aku sering jadi tantrum, tapi jarang banget jadi haters. Amarah bisa dateng dalam sedetik, tp langsung hilang begitu berganti hari. Tapi kasus kali ini bener-bener bikin emosi membakar jiwa.
you had my respect guys, you had my trust..